It's official, I really have to pee, and the bathroom is like 5 feet away and i'm still not going. I'm so sorry for the delay in writing to you my dearest xanga. It's not like I haven't the desire to, it's just that I simply haven't had the time. So what's new.. what's new.. I got exempt from all my finals. That's right, I don't have to take a single final. =) Which is completely amazing for I hate this smelly shit hole we call Proviso. I guess I can't really say I hate it, because some of my best friends go here, but I can say I am certainly ready to get the fuck out. Also, St Hos Prom was the weekend. Can you say the Prom sucked? Not the people I hung out with which actually made the night amazing; but just the atmosphere, the lack of dancing, and the long ass 2 hour dinner that quite frankly tasted like shit. Last years Prom rating : 8 This years: 3 People last time: 5 People this time: 10 Let's hope that Proviso's Prom is better. Except for all the eee jos and the constant juking, I think Proviso's Prom shouldn't be too shabby. Plus I'll be sharing it with some truely amazing people, so I'm pretty positive they'll make up for it. What else is new.. I'm officially poor considering next check goes to Prom tickets and I have no other form of money. So no Mother's Day Gift, and no going out for me. Unless people wanna pay which I'm sure will get old. I can't wait to Graduate. May 25th. =) I'll be officially out of this hell hole, I'll be driving, I'll have an ass load of money, and I'll have a new computer that will actually work for a change. It will be truely amazing. Plus I anticipate on getting a full time job, and I'll be spending a week at one of my most favoritest places in the world. Tower Hill. =) And I also might be going to Cali with Cec, I'll definitely go camping, and me and Serg wanna go somewhere for Graduation. I think things have finally been looking up, except for my grandpa passing away. I sort of knew it was gunna happen, so I guess it didn't hit me as hard as it hit others. It was kinda like after my dad passed my grandpa got worse, and even though knowing damn well that he was an alcoholic just like my father, he continued to drink, so I suppose I feel no remorse. I mean if I saw my own son die before my eyes, I think I would at least attempt to stop drinking. He didn't attempt, he didn't try, he didn't even show interest in trying, so I DON'T CARE. I may ound like a bitch, but I don't. Mentally I didn't want to go through the same shit again, so I saved myself the pain. I'm not happy that he's gone but let's just say that my Grandma will finally have the freedom she deserves and she'll finally get this big ass burden of seeing her husband and son killing themselves from alcoholism, because now it's officially over for her. She can live a happy life doing whatever the fuck she wants t do within reason. So that little rant is over, and basically I don't have much else to rant about, all good thoughts. Can't wait for all the Graduation Parties, the party I'm gunna have on the 17th when my mom's away, and all the other good shit Graduating brings. Bring it on mother fucker, bring it on. <3 Pamsickle | 
